Been forever but still the same feelings...

Well, Liz and I haven't been together for a long while now, me and an old girlfriend tried getting back together, that didn't work, and now I'm on my own... and yet I still feel like shit.
Do you know what it feels like to watch a girl you've had a thing for make out with the guy she's dating, and yet he never responds? It's like... I try to justify that she is happy, as she often seems to try to justify, and yet from all that I've heard, I just don't think she's as happy as she could be. That's not to say that I would make her any happier, if she by some random incident decided to date me, I'd only want a non-serious relationship for the summer. And from what I can tell, that's not what she's looking for. That really bugs me though, cause while I know I don't make a very great girlfriend (I think I cry too much most of the time and I've been told I'm too clingy), I just... I think her current boyfriend is just using her.
I guess a lot of this is brought on by the way she was doting on him when I saw them today, and all I could think is 'I want that too...' I dunno how obvious it is but I'm pretty sure I'm not in a healthy situation, lol. I just want someone I can kiss, cuddle with, and just plain old hang out. At least I got the hang out part down.

On the upside, Liz is really into a guy she's known for years and things are looking up for her, but she's off to Wyoming for the summer, so her relationships are on hold for now. My ex-girlfriend that I recently tried dating again is really sweet on a guy we hang out with, but he's glued to the other girl (who would never date him, which he knows, but he won't stop hoping, lol), both of whom I hang with XD.

Anyways, this is probably all quite boring, so I think I am off for the evening.