me...
I try so hard to make her happy... I feel like I've had to give up a part of me... I'll admit it's a selfish part, but still...
I've found that in an effort to satisfy that part of me, I'm trying to reach out beyond... and even though it hasn't been successful yet, it's still not satisfying at all anyways...
I'm a very sexual person... VERY sexual... If I could I'd have sex every hour... and anywhere. I especially love being out somewhere where we could be found... or in a house that's not either of ours... it's that danger... that awkwardness that drives me... I love all of it... but... if I ever move on something like that... like if I ever have an impulse, you always tell me to just cool off... That's the only reason I end up going after other girls at all... T and M... they're not the best of girls... but... there's something appealing... maybe it's just the chase... I love the chase too, but I feel like I never get that with you... it's gotten to the point where even sexual thoughts in a situation that could be pushed in that direction don't even turn me on... it's really kinda sad...
I dunno... I guess I just wanted to say that...