It's a new year

And instead of things changing like they had seemed to at first, it turns out that they're still just the same...

At least... in a few areas...

One incredible change is quite simply, the wonderful young woman I am with. I've ranted and raved about how perfect she is, but I still can't seem to emphasize it enough... She's still perfect, she's still understanding... she's still... wow... lol.

Where things haven't changed (yet) is in old relationships... I know that I shouldn't start questioning my position on friendship... because I've had friends run out on me, and I don't want to do the same to my friends... but the things I have to deal with, the shit I have to clean up is starting to get unbearable... on top of the fact that... well... in short... I really am with a wonderfully jealous girl, but not in the 'what is better about her than me' kinda way. She's jealous in the 'get the hell away from my man' kinda way... and I love it. It's also helping me piece together a lot of shit...

Anyways, long story short, I'm slowly working my way towards telling my exes to lay off on the rumor shit, and let me live my life WITHOUT THEM. Eventually I'll get there, it's just... it's taking me a while to come to terms with it...

Well, I'm off again, to sleep alone... and wish she was next to me... again...

I love you my sweet...