There are days...

Where I wish I had readers... people that could actually answer a few of my questions, maybe provide some insight, and tell me if I'm in the wrong or what... All I know is that... well, like usual, she had her rehearsal to go to, and that was at 4:30, and I asked her to call me when she got out, just... I dunno, just to see how things went. Like usual, I called like... I think two times, just to leave messages for her, I didn't expect her to pick up. Anyways, so then my mother calls around 9, and we're chatting like usual, and she makes mention of the fact that she made sure that everyone was out of rehearsal by 8. Well... I called after 8 for one of the messages, so I started getting bugged... cause... well... I dunno... just because I guess I feel like maybe calling me wasn't a priority... I would have been fine with a text or somethin, just saying 'we're going out on the date thing, I'll call after we're done.' So then... I just kinda started freaking, so I called her three times in a row, no answer, so I texted her, just asking her to call when she could. Response? 'I'm fine, I'll call later.' Of course now I'm worrying, not because I think she's in trouble or anything, or in a situation that isn't the safest (although the thought had crossed my mind), but because I worry that maybe she's beginning to think I'm a little too oppressive... and she won't tell me... or maybe K is being a total bitch about her phone, it could be any number of things, but... just... I dunno... then... there's... well... I don't even want to think about that, cause all I can do is pray it isn't true.

Now why am I writing this here? why am I not talking to one of my personal friends about this? because, the only people that would listen to what I'm saying, are ex-gf's, and one of them doesn't even like A, so... it's better for me to post this here... because I know A will read it, and I just... I guess all I can hope for is that she doesn't think I'm overreacting, or if she does, that she'll tell me...