All it takes...

Is one night together... one night of nothing more than falling asleep in eachother's arms... and then...
It's almost impossible to sleep now... and I'm sure if anyone really knew, they'd shit a brick...
It's really sad... no one really understands how we feel about eachother, no one sees how she looks at me, how I look at her... And so many of them assume that we are just going through a phase or something, some are even waiting for us to fall apart... both of us are hoping that never happens. I think there's a noticeable difference between a simple relationship, and something that's worth a lot more, sadly though, no one seems to be capable of picking up on that, at least, the people that I would expect to pick up on it haven't really spent that much time around A and I. Maybe it's not that obvious... course... I do have to point out that most of the time we're hanging around A's friends because most of my friends just give me weird looks or comments (my ex Av... that's about it) or are too busy with their own relationships (my friend/occasional photo slave, catt). A's friends are... well, they're a lot more immature than A, there's no two ways about it, I mean, yah, they're younger than my friends, but that can also be an advantage, at least they just give me a funny look occasionally, rather than a lecture (one of most of my friends' favorite pastimes with me lately). Sadly though... my friends are the one's that really surprise me, because sometimes, I expect A's friends to act like they do, but... I would expect my own friends to be more open minded, or at least more mature, and be capable of seeing that A is very different from her friends... but...

On a completely different subject, one of my friends who just moved to Vegas called me today to get my mum's address. To my surprise, she GUILT TRIPPED ME, because she was hanging out with Av on halloween night, and they called me up to invite me to hang out. Well, I'd already planned (for the last WEEK) to spend that night with A, and she had a whole party-ish thing planned with K (fell through, but we still had fun), so it's not like I was just gonna up and drop out on A and go hang with my friend and Av. I was just in shock, I mean, I didn't get to see her before she left for Vegas, so I kinda feel bad about that, but not as much now, especially after the crap she pulled. I don't like it when someone calls me up and chews me out for NOT DROPPING MY PLANS WITH MY LOVE TO COME SPEND AN EVENING WITH THEM, and just because she's moving to Vegas. Well so what, Vegas is only a five hour drive from me, so what's the big fucking deal? If she really wanted to see me, all she'd have to do is invite me for a weekend or somethin, or maybe drive her ass out here and visit me. It's not all that hard.

Heh, it's too damn late, and now I'm getting all pissed over this shit, ah well. I know I'll hear about it from Av eventually, or maybe not, I dunno. I guess I got nothin more for now.


I wish I could share my bed with A again tonight...